Dianne Silvestri’s fine lyric poems are written with the clear vision of the physician who herself becomes the patient with a serious illness (“beached / my white coat / surrendered”). She travels with honesty and courage her “long / essential diversion” from the everyday of her life. There is the night phone call with bad news (“I endure for the verdict at dawn”), followed by the complicated journey through pain, treatments, fears, losses, consolations, leading to a “first-ditch list” of hopes. An inspiring, merciful, beautifully written collection.

— Ann Taylor, author of Sortings

Dianne Silvestri is known for her diagnostic savvy, therapeutic smarts, and compassion. In this book, she triumphs, not only with a survivor’s pluck, but with tantalizing juxtapositions: word to word, sentence to sentence, idea to idea.

— Jeffrey D. Bernhard, MD, FRCP (Edin), Professor Emeritus, UMass Chan Medical School

Some things must be experienced to be fully understood. Love. A perfectly ripe slice of watermelon on a summer day. Cancer and a stem cell transplant. Dianne Silvestri beautifully opens the door into this reality. Fellow transplant survivors like me will feel a deep camaraderie with her as she speaks of her experience. At times stark and even dark, her poems express the shock of diagnosis and the ravages of treatment. The final line in “Daunorubicin”—“Oh crimson savage, leave me alive!”—took me back to those torturous days of never-ending nausea. And yet, these poems are often funny and full of hope. Silvestri introduces us to her IV pole, George, and forgives this new friend when he nips at her ankles. With words real and raw, she lays bare the fear of not surviving, the struggles of new life in survival, and the joys of reclaiming mundane tasks like grocery shopping. Her question to her donor in “Dear Healthy 28-Year-Old Man” brought me to my knees: “Whoever you are, will your sacrifice be worthwhile?” People often ask me how I got through three fights with stage 4 blood cancer, saying they don’t think they could do it. This collection of poems lights the way through. 

— Dianne Callahan, motivational speaker and author of Lighthearted Life and the forthcoming Journey through Illness